#2: "I'm here to see my gynecologist"

or in other words, a trip to the gynie doctor

Sep 25, 2023

hi hi hi sisters ♡

welcome back to a new week! if you are new, i’m so happy to have you, you can look at old newsletters by clicking here for the archive ◡̈

this week i’ve still been feeling veryyyyy existential, but talking to people has been helping

I feel like I have always been an open book. however there is a slight caveat with that. i do share a lot about my life, and would call myself an oversharer, but i can definitely feel self conscious sometimes (and when my mental health is bad I tend to close myself off). however, if someone asks, I will just about answer ANY question and give LOTS of details. I would like to say i’m a “tmi girlie”

so be prepared with content that may come up in any weekly newsletter

and with that being said, i recommend therapy (mainly for me but like i think everyone could benefit from talking to a professional person every once in awhile)

i’m currently working on getting a therapist but kelley (my sister) acted like one to me this week. and I had a phone call with a psychiatrist that was so helpful and I talked to my roommates about my existential feelings, and it was what I needed. but I recognize that my issues also need more professional guidance so therapy it is. i’ve been to therapy off and on, but it’s time to go back. so I recommend therapy, for all of us.

movies: I started a group thing called “movie church” inspired by Greta Gerwig doing this during the filming of Barbie. In an interview, Margot Robbie talked about how once production was underway, LuckyChap hosted weekly movie screenings at the Electric Cinema in Notting Hill. every sunday morning, cast and crew were invited to watch a movie that Greta Gerwig had picked out that served as a reference for Barbie. Its been so so so fun to have people over each sunday afternoon and enjoy a movie together, even if only one person comes over, i’m happy to be doing it. so far we have watched A Star is Born, Soul, 500 Days of Summer and Singing in the Rain.

podcasts: I have been LOVING Amber Fillerup lately, like in the past two years or so i’ve really started to follow along, and I genuinely enjoy all the content she creates and the person she is and tries to be. she is so authentic to herself, and its really admirable. I think she has a beautiful mind and is so good at sharing it. and this week she was on one of my fav podcasts, Girlscamp, and it was perfection.

music: hehe i’ve been listening to a lot of Noah Kahan, Lizzy McAlpine, and Phoebe Bridgers (did i say that i’ve been feeling existential and depressed???)

also just so incredibly annoyed with ticketmaster and like everything about them for the past year, but the rage is extra fresh with the GUTS tour and once again not getting a code… screaming at this tweet honestly, iykyk

in my mind: Alyssa sent me this NYT article about how Oppenheimer is the ultimate girlie, great read, very funny

I finished reading Pageboy by Elliot Page while in Utah, and normally I LOVE memoirs, like I am a slut for them, however this one left me feeling meh. It was really hard to follow the timeline and his story because he kept jumping around and it just made reading not as enjoyable. I do feel like everyone has a story to tell, and that it is so important for us to read LGBTQ+ stories to create empathy, but I feel like he could have shared his story and maybe had someone else write it.

in my stomach: krispy kreme pumpkin donuts. I got the pumpkin spice original glaze, very subtle pumpkin flavor but very yummy, and the pumpkin spice cake donut, a classic, fan favorite 10/10 recommend

nothing says “ultimate adulthood” like going to the gynecologist. or as the doctor kept calling it “the gynie department” which honestly made me a little uncomfortable. i’d rather just say gyno or obgyn or gynecology hahaha oh well, the doctor was so kind

this is now the second time i’ve been to a gynecology appointment in my adulthood. technically this is a 4th time, but the first visit was in high school- i piggy backed off my mom’s appointment because she wanted me to get to know a gynecologist. BUT i did NOT have that lady check me out at all; my legs were firmly crossed and my clothes were clinging to my body. i was even on my period at the time. the nurse was so confused as to why i was there haha. another time was just for a second round of an HPV shot, so like i got the shot and then i left. my first appointment was an obgyn was on my 26th birthday and it was really a great experience. the doctor was so nice, she did give me a little bit of a hard time waiting until I was 26 to go to a gynecologist for the first time even though I was a virgin, but it’s good practice to go to one! I know in utah all the doctors say it’s not needed until you have sex but like what if you are a 30 year old virgin, i think it’s important to get to an obgyn probably around 24-25. anyway, i digress from that…

this was the second time of a ✨real appointment✨ with the breast exam and putting your legs up and everything. I went in because i feel like it’s good practice to go yearly and get a check up. i also needed a refill of my birth control. and i truly went in going to ask about different birth control options because i feel like i might just be super emotional on this one, lol. but in classic anxiety fashion she asked what I was on and I told her and she said “okay i’ll get you a refill” and I didn’t say anything else

to end, i’d like to encourage everyone to go to the gynie doctor and get a checkup. (if you’re the singular guy reading this, idk get a prostate exam, or better yet, get a female friend of yours, or your mom, a little treat because we have to do this yearly) if it’s your first time i HIGHLY recommend for you to start using a period cup now and get comfy with your body. i think this made a big big big difference with making it a good first experience (and an easy second one) because it really shouldn’t hurt. i’m not saying that some doctors aren’t as careful as they should be, and doctors should only be careful and respectful with their patients. but like your vagina is made to stretch for a giant baby’s head, so it can (and should) fit the speculum without pain. the worst part of it all is probably peeing in one of those cups, always kinda grosses me out and very messy

okay enough about this, let’s move on (if you have any questions totally ask me, or google)

tiktok: this is truly Bjørn and I but reversed. I have either classes at 10 am or babysitting at 8:30 am and he doesn’t have class until 1:30 pm each day; also this is so me

pinterest: a healthy reminder that feelings are good

instagram: hehe same; I GASPED at this photo of Maya Hawke; drool worthy piping work

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