#46: I AM 28?!?!

its kinda weird to think I turned 28 but I have already lived 28 years of life...

hi hi hi sisters ♡ I am writing to you from a hotel in Utah. I should be back in New York City but the airlines had a different idea. I should be seated on a plane this evening though !! until then I am working from a holiday inn and checking my jetblue app every 30 minutes

I hope you all had a great week. time has felt very off this week, I think that had to do with 1) traveling to utah on a tuesday evening, 2) going to a concert on a wednesday night, and 3) going on a little weekend trip with friends where I couldn’t work

for the next little bit I want to keep the recommendations section to recommendations for different substacks that I read. I find it to be really important to support small “businesses” (that sounds odd to use here, but maybe influencers is another word I can use?) and one way I can do that is by sharing about them!

I am not too sure how I came across this newsletter, wait I remember. I follow this girl on instagram and she posted about supporting her friend and her friend is the writer,

Olivia Noceda

of the

On The Rocks

substack! each week she shares recipes she has created, a weekly report and so much more! I love how authentic she is, I also follow her on instagram and I love the videos she makes for each of her recipes. most of her drinks are non-alcoholic, but can be made into a cocktail, so she truly has something for everyone. AND she lives in San Francisco, so i’m hoping to befriend her in real life when I move there in a year. go check her out!

movies: I watched theater camp on the plane on my way to utah, I love that movie so much

broadway: I was able to see cabaret this past week. Miranda won lottery tickets for the monday night show. I had zero clue of what to expect but it was AMAZING. first and foremost, the changes that were done to the theater were mind-boggling because they completely gutted and renovated it so its a center stage with double sided seats. the storyline was very intriguing and the actors were phenomenal. I was in awe the entire time!! I would love to see it again with eddie redmayne as the emcee before he leaves. but nonetheless I want to see it again!!

music: I was able to see olivia rodrigo in concert and WOWIE she was amazing. her vocals are stunning. like there were a couple of songs when she was laying down or sitting on the ground and nothing impacted her ability to sing flawlessly. her stage performance was so cute and I loved every second of it. it was especially fun to go with my best friends and sister!

in my mind: I liked this article about anticipatory grief, in it she specifically talks about her husband’s cancer diagnosis, but I appreciate it because I definitely feel this way when it comes to losing my grandparents or loved ones.

in my stomach: while in southern utah we went to a place in cedar city called centro woodfire pizzeria, and wow it was DELICIOUS!! everyone loved it.

I was thinking about doing a section here of like 28 things I’ve learned in my life or even like 29 things I want to do before 29, but to be quite frank, I do not have the brain power or motivation to create such a list.

but something I do want to briefly write about is truly how weird time and age is. like I put in the header, I just turned 28 but that means that I have lived 28 years already. which I dont know why but that is a weird concept to think about, because it forces you to say “I am entering my 29th year of life” rather than my 28th year. does that make any sense to anyone? its okay if its just a me struggle

its funny to me how bad we are as a society about telling how old someone is. I think partly it has to do with media and how older celebrities have been casted as people much younger than them, but I also think its because we all age so differently. our skin tone determines how old we look. whether we wear makeup or not. our expectation of when someone should be a certain year in their career or schooling. botox, lip filler, under eye filler, and every other beauty enhancement under the sun. all of these factors play into not being able to tell how old another person is. and I know i’m guilty of this, especially because I tend to think that others are the same age as me; whether they are 3 years younger or 5 years older. just this week I was carded for a shot in cabaret, when in reality I was turning 28 years old the next day. now dont get me wrong, I am quite flattered when people age me a couple of years younger, but 7 years?!?! now thats extreme.

I have met kids who are wise beyond their age and young people who have old souls. I also know quite a few people that are way older than me but act incredibly immature. all I know is that I don’t feel 28, I don’t even know what 28 is supposed to feel like. but maybe thats the point. maybe time is just a concept and everything is relative.

tiktok: god bless this guy at the kamala rally in georgia; every single video of chappell roan at lalapalooza is INSANE; I am DEEP into muffin man olympian tiktok and I love them al

pinterest: can anyone else relate?; I love the shape of these

instagram: cabaret was amazing and I love these photos

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I will be out of commission for the next couple of weeks, I am hoping to get some guest writers for the substack while i’m out! so stay tuned for that!