#54: not going to my high school reunion was the best thing for me
in here: a podcast episode everyone should listen to
hi hi hi sisters ♡ happy october!! I truly cannot believe we are in the final quarter of the year.
I feel like once october comes around the rest of the year is practically done, maybe it has to do with the holidays and the busyness of life, or maybe it is because at the same time we are simultaneously subconsciously slowing down as the weather starts to cool down. either way the year is coming to a close which is scary and exciting all at the same time!
for the next little bit I want to keep the recommendations section to recommendations for different substacks that I read. I find it to be really important to support small “businesses” (that sounds odd to use here, but maybe influencers is another word I can use?) and one way I can do that is by sharing about them!
shaking things up a little bit by recommending an email newsletter, not through substack, but one that I have been enjoying for YEARS. actually I dont even think I could tell you when i started subscribing, but it has been at least 5 years. its called the good trade. it is a female owned, LA based newsletter that has been around since 2014. they feature “editorials on sustainability, slow living, and self-care” as well as share “meaningful content about the issues that matter for an intentional life.” its a 30 second daily newsletter that shares recipes, essays, companies doing good, and I love it! highly highly recommend
movies: went to the movies with alyssa and bjørn and saw the talking heads stop making sense. it was a concert film for their one night show called stop making sense. it is truly DELIGHTFUL
podcasts: alex cooper, of the call her daddy podcast, had madam vice president kamala harris on her show. I personally havent listened to many episodes of call her daddy. but I do know that she is an incredibly successful podcast host (most listened to woman podcast host in the world) and that her podcast just signed a deal with sirius xm for $125 million. which, im pretty sure, is the most that any podcast has ever made. and it was by a woman owned podcast. HELL YEAH. i’ll be tuning in more frequently.
music: I got to see the bleachers and vampire weekend at MSG this weekend. I feel so lucky to be able to attend concerts at MSG. sometimes I forget how historically impactful MSG is as a venue, but seeing people perform there and seeing how happy they are to be there is extra special. even if the security took my carabiner clip that I got in switzerland for the vampire weekend show even though I brought it to the bleachers show TWO DAYS PRIOR. moving on…
in my mind: HEARTSTOPPER SEASON 3 !!!! it was truly perfection. I know everyone is obsessing over the new show nobody wants this with kristen bell and adam brody, and don’t get me wrong, i’ll get to it. but the 3rd season of heartstopper was my #1 priority as I have been waiting for it. I truly cannot describe my love for that show.
in my stomach: I cannot stop thinking about the sublime chocolate chip cookie ice cream sandwiches from trader joes. I had them last week at a friends birthday party, and they are truly so delicious. i’m mad ive never had them before, but also glad because I could pound them
I graduated high school 10 years ago. holy cow that is a wild thing to say. part of me feels like high school was a lifetime ago, while the other part feels like I am still in my early 20’s and high school was just a stone’s throw away. last month, I did not attend my high school reunion, and I wasnt planning on it from the beginning. its interesting having a high school reunion in the year of 2024 as so many of us are on social media. if I want to know what is going on in the lives of the people I went to high school with I could easily stalk them on facebook or instagram. but the thing is, I dont. because quite frankly, I. DO. NOT. CARE. at least not about about 99% of people from high school. yikes maybe that sounds a little harsh, but hey its the truth. I am not really in touch with anyone from my class in high school (and if you are from my high school and you are reading this i’m so sorry) and I maybe consistently talk to less than 5 people I went to high school with, and I dont think any of them graduated with me… i’ve never enjoyed going back to las vegas, never had any friends I wanted to run into or catch up with, I dreaded running into people at a store or something. there are a couple of people I follow on letterboxd and I do really enjoy that, but thats enough for me. I dont need to know about their jobs or families. if I did, I can look on facebook real quick and I am satisfied.
dont get me wrong, I was not this bitter while in high school. in fact, I thought it was great! i loved my electives, i thought i had good friends, i enjoyed being in student council, but it wasn’t until recently that I realized I really did not enjoy my high school experience that much. I didnt have many close friends, I was friendly with everyone, but I didnt have “my people.” I was dealing with a lot of depression and anxiety and suicidal thoughts. I was home all the time. and my parents were incredibly strict about the stupidest shit even though I was practically a perfect teenager- I never snuck out. I didnt drink or do drugs or date or kiss boys. I got good grades. I was a very responsible driver. yatta yatta yatta.
life after high school has been infinitely better. and i’m SO GLAD. how lame would it have been if I peaked in high school?!?! bleh 🤮 and I didnt realize how strongly I felt about all of this until I saw pictures from my high school reunion. just seeing the people I went to high school with gave my body such a visceral reaction, like my heart was POUNDING. and I thought to myself “this is a good thing because this shows just how good my life has become”
maybe i’ll go to my 25 year high school reunion - I doubt it. maybe i’ll just stick to occasionally looking up people on facebook now and then when i’m at pique intrigue. until then, i’m just going to be keep on loving the life I have created and be grateful that high school is long gone.
tiktok: I fear that this is me; this is also very much me but I am okay with that
pinterest: I want all the ruffles; idk why but i’m obsessed with this
instagram: ty
for sending me this beautiful little women drawing on instagram; i might be making these; incredible mood
hope you all have a wonderful week!! I am off to las vegas this weekend for my aunt’s wedding. I am not looking forward to 95 degree weather in october… but alas I am obligated to go. I hope the rest of you have a nice FALL week!!
AYEEE SHOUTOUT <3