#7: noah schnapp saw my tiktok
and I will never stop talking about it
hi hi hi sisters ♡
welcome back to a new week! if you are new, i’m so happy to have you, you can look at old newsletters by clicking here for the archive ◡̈
its been a warm week in new york for the most part and i’m READY FOR THE FALL. i’m looking forward to the cooler weather, my AC unit has been out of my window for a bit, my wardrobe is switched over to sweaters and long sleeves, and i’m tired of sweating. I also would love to have snow in new york this winter, and I feel like for that to happen, the cooler weather needs to be more consistent, so chop chop
this weekend bjørn and I went on a lovely walk in central park and it was so nice to walk around for an hour and see all the beautiful trees. highly recommend seeing the leaves change wherever you are. i’m trying really hard to walk 10,000 steps a day. and while that is like the recommended amount of steps to walk, let me tell you, it is so much harder to achieve that when you are in a job (or student) where you sit all day and then you get home and youre too tired to walk after, especially with the sun setting later. so i’m trying to get lots of extra steps in on the weekends to make up for the week days, but i do have a goal to hit 10,000 steps a day, i’ll let you know when that happens.
movies: this week I watched princess and the frog and scream. I will say that scream was a decent movie, I don’t like scary movies that much but I feel like october is a month that I should watch one scary movie, so i’m glad I did. HOWEVER, I did have a little nightmare that someone was in my bed this morning and that SPOOKED me. I felt chills over my whole body and my heart was pounding, hehe, maybe I welcomed in an unfriendly spirit. sooooo, its gonna be a minute until I watch another scary movie.
music: 1989 Taylors Version came out this week. when 1989 first came out in 2014, I was a freshman at SUU in Cedar City. target was the only store you could buy the deluxe version of the album, walmart only sold the regular version. the closest target was in st george an hour south of cedar, so that morning I woke up before school and drove down to the nearest target to buy the deluxe version of 1989. my dad was so mad and thought it was so dumb that I would do that, but it was worth it. its really cool to now live in a full circle moment where I am living in new york during the release of 1989 TV, the city that inspired the album originally.
on that note, I posted a silly little tiktok just of me walking down the streets of new york with “welcome to new york” as the audio and Noah Schnapp, aka Will Byers from Stranger Things (hes literally my netflix icon and I have a shirt of him, I love him ), commented, liked, and saved my tiktok to his favorites all before it even had like 700 views. I am truly in complete and utter shock, but also living on a total high.
in my stomach: yellow cake with chocolate frosting that alyssa made me :’) the best surprise I could ever come home to
so death has been on my mind a lot lately. i’ve been going through a religious thought change that has led me to have a lot of anxieties about death and the afterlife and all of that. watching the movie scream, while I didn’t have nightmares from it (lmao I literally did after I wrote that line), it really fed into my over-active imagination of the thought of being murdered or something like that happening. and then with the mass shooting in maine that has been on my mind a lot. in addition to the continuing genocide in gaza and knowing that innocent children and people are dying every day. and then seeing that matthew perry passed away saturday. it feels as if death has been everywhere. and it is SO scary and overwhelming and almost all consuming in my thoughts.
I don’t really have an answer or solution for these anxieties at the moment and I have zero clue whatsoever about what will happen to us after we pass away. I love the thought that the good place is somewhat like what will happen. or that it is similar to falling asleep- we fall asleep every night not knowing what sleep actually is but we do it and en up on the other side of it. however, I do know that this life we have is so precious and for all we know, it is all we have. so i’m going to try to make every day count. even though i’m in law school and that really is the bane my existence at the moment, I can make life outside of law school worth living.
i’m currently re-reading a book called embraced by the light. I read it like 6-7 years ago right after my mission and i remember really enjoying the book and feeling like it resonated with my belief system at the time, so i’m curious to see how I feel now. that being said, the first chapter of the book emphasizes the beauty and importance of life, which I think is the lesson I need to really focus on at the moment.
isnt being an adult with adult anxieties sooooo fun…
tiktok: olivia rodrigo hitching a ride; big brother concerned about his armless baby sister; Leif is so funny; dog selfies
instagram: this caption is me every day; i’ve never wanted to attend an event more in my life; very informational post
I hope you all have a wonderful week, thank you again for reading this newsletter of mine, it truly means so much to me. if you dress up fun for halloween pls send me a pic, I love halloween costumes. walking around new york this past weekend and just seeing people dressed up is SO fun. also all the dogs. I love their little costumes.
xoxo,
your big sis, kaitlynn
